I cant say Im particularly satisfied with my results,cos I failed A subject which I NEVER wanna fail it cos IVE ALWAYS LOVE that subj but I did! And that subj is maths. I was hoping the least I can afford to get is C6 but I flopped one grade and got a D7. Im eligible for 17courses in NP and TP. But Im not sure if I'll make it cos the COP are as low as ONE DIGIT! But nevertheless,I'll still apply refusing to give up.

Ms Ong called at night to talk and she said she's proud of me the fact that Im one of the few in SEC5 who managed to pass ENGLISH. I sympathise some of my friends who got good grades for maths and science but failed english. On a lighter note,Im very happy for my combined humans and malay. Im lucky I re-sit for my malay paper,cos I finally got an A2 though I was hoping for A1. For my comb humans,I was hoping for an A2 at least but I got a B3. My history teacher once told that for my n level,i got a 5 for combined humans,which is equivalent to F9 for o level standard. Fortunately,I manage to get B3 and not F9! Alhamdulillah.

I got a C6 for F&N which was expected from the start :) But I wasnt hoping to get a C6 for science,at least a B4. MY physics teacher was dissapointed cos her expectations of me is to get an A2 or the least,B3. I let her down :( Sum up all my L1R4 I got 24points. My CCA grade is D7 cos I quit when I was in sec 5,so my past years grades have been diminshed! Yes,indeed,Im enraged over that! If not I could have still have B3 for it due to the pass years of CCA performances. But thanks to the new rule MOE invented,ALL my CCA grade dropped to D7.

Ytd I went to work with no mood,no joy,no laughter. I manage to pull myself through to talk and laugh but deep down inside I kept thinking of my results. All the while I work from 10am-6pm,my results was all I think about. Im afraid that Im unable to enter into poly. It's really scary to know that I'll be stuck having nowhere to go. Then after work,went to nas house to print those applications. Today,we'll be going to a few polys to send our application.

Woke up in the morn to do morn prayer then after I prayed another time which is meant for myself. This prayer is to asked God to show me the right path I have to go. If poly is my righteous and rightful path then show me the sign and if not show me where is the rightful place I need to go. All I can do is pray hard and keep applying not giving up. MOm and dad prayed for me too upon getting the admission to poly. Afterall,what nas said is true - God has bigger plans for us. And furthermore,He knows whats best for us.

Suppose to work today but since this poly thing concerns my future I'll have to forgo work. I wonder how my section will handle 63students. To make matters worse,another two colleagues are unable to come.

I consider myself lucky and Im grateful for it cos I have supportive parents who understands me.

Dad said,"Don't be sad. I know you did your best. Abah nampak you belajar. Abah and mama pergi haji kita doakan you pass your o level with very good grades,tapi pass biaser2. Selalunye,doa ibu bapa makbul. Ini maknenye,ade hikmah."

Mom said,"Nvm dik,we know u did ur best. We can see it for ourselves,dont worry and dont be sad k. We will always doakna u and doa ibu bapa makbul,only waiting for the time. Maybe now doa tak terkabul,tapi in the future. It's all about when Allah nak kabulkan,may be not now,may be later when u grow up or when we're not here anymore."

Im really glad I have great parents cos there are ppl out there who dont,so Im grateful for it. But it is a definite that nas and I will be resitting our maths and eng paper,again. Though I pass eng,Im still not satisfied with it. Either that,or I retake maths and science. Or most to most,eng maths sci.

The last resort if I have nowhere to go will be retake o levels,all over again. Thus,go back to school.