Accompanied bf to polyclinic and the service there was really getting onto bf's nerves. He was sick, and is still sick. I could feel the scorching heat from his body. cheeyyy scorching heat,bedek. hahh. Waited for his turn to be examined by the doctor for 2hrs ++. so bleargghhh.

The reason why i never go to polyclinics if im down with an illness. yeahh,i go private ones :) What infuriated him more was when the numbers were VERY random. That made him wait for so long. Thankfully i was there to be able to cheer him up a little bit. bf's temperature was 39.2 degree celscius! 0_0

Then we went to the pharmacy to collect his meds and saw his mom. Talked to her mom and etc. A CUTE mom indeed :) Then i went home and got changed to head off to my cousin's hse. This i shall elaborate on the next entry which might be tmr cos my sister is waiting fer me to end my internet session.

I really really hope bf will recover soon cos im gonna depart pronto.




Woke up early today arnd 6 cos i finally am able to pray. I didnt have a good night sleep as i was sick. feels so blearghh. After talking on the phone with bf i called hana and we talked then both of us went to sleep.

Will be going out with my cousin today and fetch hana from work at raffles city.

I remember heading off to bed at around 1am i think. Then i woke up at 3am and cudnt get myself back to sleep. I tried like crazy to sleep and ended up tossing and turning for umpteen times.

I felt like puking like all the way may be cos my stomach was bloated. Took bismag to ease the bloatedness and thank God.

I still think about those things and many humans dont quite realise it. Remember there was one of my previous post i said that dad told me that women/female are the ones who can easily go to heaven and also easy to go to hell. Remember? So i shall elaborate on it cos i just feel like it :)

Dad said women just have to assure that some of the things are accomplished and they will have a place in heaven,for sure.

1)Pray five times a day
2)take real good care of their modesty/maruah
3)aurat
4)obey and respect parents


If all this are accomplished she will have a place in heaven. On the other hand, women are aslo easy to go to hell.

1)Seldom/sometimes pray
2)unable to take real good care of their modesty/maruah
3)aurat
4)disobedience and disrespect their parents


Thinking again,my dad has a point. I guess WE humans are too caught up with the wonders of the world. Im not trying to preach here. Im only sharing my opinion.

Mom once said, if i always pray and do not leave out any prayers, that shows that i do remember God. That im not just a 'say but never do' person. And if i remember God, He will also remember me and help me in every ways such as in studies and in life. That i'll always feel happy and have a peaceful life.

I was happy when she asked me abt how to pray and etc. She often tell me about her family problems and everything and how she wished she had a family like mine. She once said that she envied me cos my dad and i can really get along well like bestfriends. She even shouted to her sister that all she wants is to have a family like mine.

Then she told me she started to feel more peaceful when she started praying regularly. She said that i was the one who motivated her to study and hang on in life despite the mountainous problem she had to shoulder w/o the moral support of a family not even a mom. She said i was the one who kept her spirit up high, and when she said that i burst into tears. Unfortunately,now i dont meet her often cos she has VERY VERY impt things to do. I'll pray fer her happiness and safety.

Anw,PSLE results ytd,and a malay muslim girl aced it excellently. she got an aggregrate of 294/300 like how awesome is that? She really bring name to the malay society aye. Congrats.

Is it so hard to spare 5-10mins of our precious time just to pray? Is that so hard?




I can really sense that im gonna be sick real soon if i do not put it to a stop.

Met bf just now for a while to pass him my medication. He's down with a fever and poor him. Dad and i will soon be down with a fever too cos we have been feeling quite uneasy and i feel like i can puke any minute from now.

Then after passing the meds to bf,sat down with him and talk for a while then i made my way to yishun. I hope he'll have a speedy recovery cos he has got to work tmr.

Talking abt tmr,i'll be going out with my dear cousin to get mom's present and she'll be getting her own stuff. I really hope i'll feel a whole lot better by tmr or else the outing would be blearggghhh with me feeling sick.

Anw,ive been thinking often about what are the things i have done, what i have sinned, if i have already abide by the Islamic laws and if i am ready to face Him.

I know my entry sound so monotonous and blearghh maybe cos im sick and my stomach is having a churning movement that makes me wanna puke. Now i gtg already. Will be updating soon like tmr. And pls may i recover before i depart for JB.




RABBANI - PERGI TAK KEMBALI

Setiap insan pasti merasa
Saat perpisahan terakhir
Dunia yang fana akan ditinggalkan
Hanya amalan yang dibawa



Terdengar sayup surah dibaca
Sayunya alunan suara
Cemas di dada...lemah tak bermaya
Terbuka hijab di depan mata



Selamat tinggal pada semua
Berpisahlah kita selamanya
Kita tak sama nasib di sana
Baikkah atau sebaliknya



Amalan dan takwa jadi bekalan
Sejahtera bahagia pulang...ke sana



Sekujur badan berselimut putih
Rebah bersemadi sendiri
Mengharap kasih anak dan isteri
Apa mungkin pahala dikirim



Terbaring sempit seluas pusara
Soal-bicara terus bermula
Sesal dan insaf tak berguna lagi
Hancurlah jasad dimamah bumi



Berpisah sudah segalanya
Yang tinggal hanyalah kenangan
Diiring doa dan air mata
Yang pergi takkan kembali lagi







HIJJAZ-FATAMORGANA



Pulanglah pada Tuhan cahaya kehidupan
Syarat bahagia di dunia
Akhirat kekal selamanya pada Allah



Sudah menjadi lumrah kehidupan di dunia
Cabaran dan dugaan mendewasakan usia
Rintangan dilalui tambah pengalaman diri
Sudah sunnah ketetapan Ilahi



Deras arus dunia menghanyutkan yang terleka
Indah fatamorgana melalaikan menipu daya
Dikejar dicintai bak bayangan tak bertepi
Tiada sudahnya dunia yang dicari



Begitu indah dunia siapa pun kan tergoda
Harta, pangkat dan wanita melemahkan jiwa
Tanpa iman dalam hati kita kan dikuasai
Syaitan nafsu dalam diri musuh yang tersembunyi
Pulanglah kepada Tuhan cahaya kehidupan
Keimanan ketakwaan kepadanya senjata utama



Sabar menempuh jalan tetapkan iman di hati
Yakinkan janji Tuhan syurga yang sedia menanti
Imanlah penyelamat dunia penuh pancaroba
Hidup akhirat kita kekal bahagia
Imanlah penyelamat dunia penuh pancaroba
Hidup akhirat kita kekal bahagia



Pulanglah pada Tuhan cahaya kehidupan
Syarat bahagia di dunia
Akhirat kekal selamanya pada Allah
Allah



this song never fail to make me cry and mom always say this kind of songs will always soften one's heart.







am here for a while only. i have 30mins to get ready to go out to SG. will be meeting mom and sis at cwp.

so just now dad showed me how to handle the marine fishes. god,there's sure a lot of things to be done. at that point of time i really am gonna need mardhiah's dad fer help. okehh gtg!




today mom dad sister took their half day already. cos in the afternoon,we're gonna go SG! :) it has been a long time since we go out as a family eversince i was preparing for o levels.

ytd,met bf fer a while say an hour only. though it was for just a really short period of time, i guess it is worthwhile. surprisingly,bf wasnt alone but he was with his to other friends yat and haikal. yat brought his VERRRRY CUTE nephew. at first that kiddo refused to play arnd with me. he's sort of a reserved kid.

i din really get to spend time with bf as he was busy washing and repairing his friend's bike. the only time when i get to spend time was the 15mins walk from the area to the bus stop i board for bus.

i hope to meet bf again anyday around this wk cos i wont be in spore from sunday onwards till the 1st dec. unfortunately,bf have to return back to camp tmr and friday. i'll still find time to meet him on saturday then, may be after my graduation.

omg,i've yet to pay for the graduation money. nad's so gonna slaughter me if she knows i still havent pay yet.

hana start werk today and coool fer her. hafidah will be starting nx week and it's a whole new experience for her. fret not baby,im sure u can do it with confidence yeahh. whatever u do dont panic. if u make a mistake just apologise.

heyy people,update soon aye. somehow i dont have the mood to blog now cos my stomach is having cramps.




it has been 3months already bf and i are living on a bed of roses. we havent been fighting fer three months alr! that's such a record. well fer me. in the past,we used to argue a lot. and i mean a lot. i guess afterall,the fights are the ones that made our bonds grow stronger.

im gonna have to shower now. meeting bf later before going to kumon. dad's gona have a half day tmr and we're gonna go SG as a family! :)




i think bf's still sleeping. ive no idea why some ppl can sleep for really really long hours. for me,even if i were to sleep late,i'll still wake up early.

i dont think i'll be meeting bf later. see first lahh. ive got kumon later in the afternoon. ive got my convocation this saturday and im so not looking forward to it cos mom and dad are unable to attend which means i'll hafta travel using public transport. troublesome. i didnt want to go at first but for nad's sake,im going. then on that day itself i got my class chalet and my relatives from jb will be coming. looks like i wont be going for the chalet. at least i dun hafta feel bad cos i di contribute money.

after this im going to help my bro with his sch books. putting the plastic covers and etc. may be then after i'll read up on something or just do my maths for fun. hahah.

anw,my cousin,dad's side was in the malay berita minggu. the headline which stated "peguam melayu di new york" his younger bro was the one who got married a week ago. and he isnt melayu. he's race states chinese. told u my dad's side cousins all look so chinese. i like his mom. she'ss sooooo cute but cant be compared to my mom

i shall get going now. too much of computer can cause myopia :)




i finally knew how to type my posts in paragraphs. hahahah. good,then my sis wont hafta make noise at me saying abt my bad paragraphing and etc. ytd slept late at arnd 2am talking to bf on the fone. before heading off to slp called hana to say im off to bed.

ytd heroes was awesome and im so gonna keep track of the show. i hope i'll be able to watch it when im not in spore. might be going SG either today or tmr. dad's gonna hafta confirm with me pronto cos if today's not the SG day i'll be meeting bf.

a burden off my shoulder already - done with o levels. however,what i worry is the outcome of it. plus, i miss the atmosphere of sch teachers and friends. and i even miss doing maths. thank god i still hve my maths tuition. people whom i told that i still have tuition, go like ,"crazzzzyyy ah! what for?" hahahhah. learning never stops. nas will be starting werk this wednesday and i'll be starting only nx mth. thanks god there's a mosque nearby my werkplc so i'll be able to perform prayers there and not worry abt missing my prayers. furthermore,mom and dad trust me that i'll pray no matter where i am and therefore i shall not violate their trusts :)

often times i feel like putting a stop to SOMETHING which i really cant say here. i am grateful that my life is perfect. i have awesome parents. great siblings and friends. there is only just one thing,just one thing that i wish to end it. but i cant end it cos i dun want that party to get hurt. i'd rather im the one who's hurt than letting others hurt. sometimes i pray to Him asking Him to end it. END IT. but it has been so long already. if i wanted to end it,i should have ended it long time ago and not now. cos there's just too much commitment and sacrifices already done. but i dun have the heart to do so. i dun have the heart to see the other party suffer. and this is the one thing that makes me create more sins.

i've been listening to those nasyid songs for weeks already and it somehow knock a sense into me that we humans are not gonna live forever. one day everyone will die bringing only their deeds with them. some humans fail to see this as they are too caught up with the wonders of the world where actually one day everything will come to an end. like what my religious teacher said, humans say they wanna go to heaven. but what they say never go a long with their actions. as saying is easy but performing it is hard. they only say that they want to go to heaven but they dont abide by the Islamic rules. been sometime i try hard to abide by the rules. i make sure when im out having fun i wont ferget to find a mosque to pray. that i respect my parents. but like what i say there is just one thing that stops me from being a good muslimah.

anw,i wont stop asking from Him to end it.




i almost fergot there's heroes today! thanks to the advertisement just now i remembered it liao. anw,today was exhausting. was supposed to meet bf to acc me go purchase my bro's books.

unfortunately,it was raining heavily and it was a cool weather to sleep so i give in to bf to let him continue sleeping. i dun really mind cos im not the sort like i'll get mad if someone is unable to meet me at the very last min.

so i went to popular cwp and it was packed with people like a can of sardines. mothers' were alr staring to buy their children's sch books. so got the books and had to carry those books that weigh a bomb to yishun.

HEROES HAS STARTED. BRB DURING ADVERTISEMENTS :)

IM BACK!!!!! OMG. the show is awesome! never failed to make me awe. i know some part of it already cos nas had told me some parts of it.

so yeahh bought the books and went home. might be meeting bf tmr or the day after. bf has been home late fer weeks already. i dun mind that, what makes me mind is that he's waking up late. and often ppl who wakes up late tend to be lazy and i dun want that to hpn to him.

heroes can start anytime from now and i shall end here. i'll update soon when i have the time which im positive i will cos im done with o levels. what more is there that wud occupy my time? anw,will be departing for jb this sunday. wont be able to celebrate mom's burfdae the next day :( then will be going to malacca and port dickson with my relatives.

alright,heroes has started! BYE!

1.What is your best friend's Mom'sname?

-HAHAHHA. mom said it's my DAD! i had to call her office and asked!

2.What body part do you hate?

-i love every part of my body :)

3.Who was the hottest teacher you everhad?

-Mr Taufiq/k.

4.What body part do you wash first?

-face.

5.Do you have any piercings?

-yeahhhh.

6.Where?

-both ears and lips. but the lips is the past but still open :)

7.What is your bf/gf's middle name?

-FAZLI <3<3

8.Is your driveway steep?

-wow. let my husband-to-be decide *quirking eyebrows*

9.What's your favorite flavoured Pringles ?

-i dont consume it cos it's NOT HALAL - many muslims are not aware of that.

10.Have you ever been tied up?

-nehhh.

11.What was the worst thing you evergot grounded for?

-never got grounded,i dont abuse their trusts :)

12.First offence at school?

-made a teacher cry cos of my stabbing werds.

13.Have you ever had two dates in one night?

-nope.

14.How many times have you been cursed at?

-urgghhh,timeless.

15.Which shoe do you put on first?

-right,that's how the prophet did :)

16.How old are you?

16,will be 17 in 2wks time lahhhh.

17.Have you ever been to a gay bar?

-no. gigs are way cooler.

18.Have you ever had any Friends for benefits?

-nope.

19 .Is there one thing all of yourfriends have had in common?

-LAUGHING :)

20.Did you French kiss before you were18?

-unfortunately,yes.

21.Have you ever been cow-tipping or snipe-hunting?

-no but wud love to do so.

22. Who is the last person you usually think about before you fall asleep?

honestly,no one.

23.Have you ever had a song written about you?

-yeahhhh,my swtlove wrote it one fer and abt me.

24.If you had to choose to not everwash your bed sheets again or not washyour bath towel ever again, whichwould you choose?

-NEITHER!

25.Have you ever found anything inyour parents' bedroom that was kinda18+ stuff?

-nehhhhh.

26.What was your childhood nickname?

-siti.

27.When is the last time you playedthe guitar?

-months ago.

28.Have you ever peeked opposite sexesin the locker room?

-yeahahahha. for fun.

29.What's the weirdest thing you havedone while driving?

-__-

30.Have you ever bitten your toenails?

-HAHAHAHHAHA. yes.

31.How do you normally eat your Oreocookies?

-depends on how i want to at that time :)

32.Name something you do when you'realone that you wouldn't do in front ofothers?

-talk alone - that explains the high self esteem. really it helps :)

33. Disgusting moment?

-eating something ive vommitted. the taste so BLUEEEK.

34.Craziest thing done?

-swallow a $1 coin and took it out back.

35.Been on stage? What happened?

-dancing when was a kid.

36.How many drinks does it take beforeyou get drunk?

-i dont drink. it's forbidden.

37.Why are you doing this survey?

-cos im done with O LEVELS and wats the use of studying so therefore,this survey.

39.Do you scrunch or fold your toiletpaper?

-i use water. it's cleaner.

40.Cat poop or Dog poop? Which are youwilling to touch?

-cat pooop.

41.What are you allergic to?

-dust.

42.Have you ever stuck a foreignobject up your nose?

-HAHAHHAHA. yes,and i had to go to a doctor to gt it out.

43.What is the stupidest thing you'veever done at a bar?

-i dont go to bars,i go gigs.

44.Any "wacky face shot" on your album?

-hahhhaha. truckloads.

45.Have you ever called your loveinterest by another name?

-duhhhh!

46.Have you ever gotten caughtsleeping while on a date?

-nehhhh.

47.Have you ever played naked twister?

-hahahah. IF only it's not against Islamic laws i want to do. anw,never done that :)

48.Have you ever been drunk atwork/school?

-i told u i dont drink. which part of it dont u undrstnd?

49.Have you ever found yourdate's/lover 's brother or sister to behotter then your date?

-brother or sister? my bro's only 11yrs old and my sister have no interest in dating stuffs. overall,no lah.

50.How many Harry's do you hav?

-only one that is harry potter :)