So I went out with nas ytd to go to several polys and an ite. Believe me when I say it was horrendous cos it really was. We reached a few minutes late at the administration block of ite simei cos we got lost and still the in-charge said it was close. Then we headed off to tampines interchange but got on the wrong bus. We boarded the bus that head towards I dont know where but it passed by tanah merah mrt station. So we alighted and took the train from there to tampines.

Reached tampines and bumped into my aunt. Then we headed off to tp where my first choice of course awaits. Though I know that this choice doesnt have COP,thus,competition. Talked to the lecturer and she somehow discouraged me saying how slim my chances were in getting into the course I want.

Then headed off to np and the lecturer was more polite but did say to me about the slim chances too. I asked her for suggestions onto what she would do if she was me and she gave her opinion. Right after Nas and I went off to board bus 74 back to dover mrt. We were sad that we din realise that we board the bus at the wrong stop,until I finally realised it after 5mins. We felt really down that we didnt care where it would take us. It was as if we were homeless and futureless. Then we recognised this road where the bus was moving. It was the Lornie Road,hich means there is a straight bus that brings us to yishun. So we did. In the bus we were laughing and making stoopid jokes but deep down we were sad.

Went out with nas in the morn till arnd 4pm and we only drank chinchow,milkshake and some fries and that's it. We were too sad to eat a sumptous meal. Called fahmy to tell about the so-called interviews and I suddenly burst into tears. In our 5years of friendship,that is the first time he heard me cry. But then the crying didnt last. I manage to get a hold of myself. Then had an almost one hour discussion with mom and dad about the path I should take. Now Im no longer lost and scared cos I noe what to do alr. I really hope nas will stay strong,alright babyyyy :)

Remember about my previous entry I said about my last resort is to go back school,well Ive decided not to,the last resort has changed :) I believe whatever I get is because God wants me to have it cos he knows what's best for me. ANd if let's say I dont get any course Ive applied,simply because God wants me to try again,and who knows I'll do better,Insya'allah.




I cant say Im particularly satisfied with my results,cos I failed A subject which I NEVER wanna fail it cos IVE ALWAYS LOVE that subj but I did! And that subj is maths. I was hoping the least I can afford to get is C6 but I flopped one grade and got a D7. Im eligible for 17courses in NP and TP. But Im not sure if I'll make it cos the COP are as low as ONE DIGIT! But nevertheless,I'll still apply refusing to give up.

Ms Ong called at night to talk and she said she's proud of me the fact that Im one of the few in SEC5 who managed to pass ENGLISH. I sympathise some of my friends who got good grades for maths and science but failed english. On a lighter note,Im very happy for my combined humans and malay. Im lucky I re-sit for my malay paper,cos I finally got an A2 though I was hoping for A1. For my comb humans,I was hoping for an A2 at least but I got a B3. My history teacher once told that for my n level,i got a 5 for combined humans,which is equivalent to F9 for o level standard. Fortunately,I manage to get B3 and not F9! Alhamdulillah.

I got a C6 for F&N which was expected from the start :) But I wasnt hoping to get a C6 for science,at least a B4. MY physics teacher was dissapointed cos her expectations of me is to get an A2 or the least,B3. I let her down :( Sum up all my L1R4 I got 24points. My CCA grade is D7 cos I quit when I was in sec 5,so my past years grades have been diminshed! Yes,indeed,Im enraged over that! If not I could have still have B3 for it due to the pass years of CCA performances. But thanks to the new rule MOE invented,ALL my CCA grade dropped to D7.

Ytd I went to work with no mood,no joy,no laughter. I manage to pull myself through to talk and laugh but deep down inside I kept thinking of my results. All the while I work from 10am-6pm,my results was all I think about. Im afraid that Im unable to enter into poly. It's really scary to know that I'll be stuck having nowhere to go. Then after work,went to nas house to print those applications. Today,we'll be going to a few polys to send our application.

Woke up in the morn to do morn prayer then after I prayed another time which is meant for myself. This prayer is to asked God to show me the right path I have to go. If poly is my righteous and rightful path then show me the sign and if not show me where is the rightful place I need to go. All I can do is pray hard and keep applying not giving up. MOm and dad prayed for me too upon getting the admission to poly. Afterall,what nas said is true - God has bigger plans for us. And furthermore,He knows whats best for us.

Suppose to work today but since this poly thing concerns my future I'll have to forgo work. I wonder how my section will handle 63students. To make matters worse,another two colleagues are unable to come.

I consider myself lucky and Im grateful for it cos I have supportive parents who understands me.

Dad said,"Don't be sad. I know you did your best. Abah nampak you belajar. Abah and mama pergi haji kita doakan you pass your o level with very good grades,tapi pass biaser2. Selalunye,doa ibu bapa makbul. Ini maknenye,ade hikmah."

Mom said,"Nvm dik,we know u did ur best. We can see it for ourselves,dont worry and dont be sad k. We will always doakna u and doa ibu bapa makbul,only waiting for the time. Maybe now doa tak terkabul,tapi in the future. It's all about when Allah nak kabulkan,may be not now,may be later when u grow up or when we're not here anymore."

Im really glad I have great parents cos there are ppl out there who dont,so Im grateful for it. But it is a definite that nas and I will be resitting our maths and eng paper,again. Though I pass eng,Im still not satisfied with it. Either that,or I retake maths and science. Or most to most,eng maths sci.

The last resort if I have nowhere to go will be retake o levels,all over again. Thus,go back to school.







Been 5 days not updating my blog and it feels pretty awkward cos I blog often like everyday in the past,last year to be specific.

Has been a week and 2 days alr my parents are bk home and everything's normal. Nas has been having more to nightmares rather than dreams. I hope that nightmare wont come true. And the fact that she told me she'll be shifting soon totally makes me so sad :'( I really hope it wont happen. I just cant imagine myself w/o her. She's like my almost boyf.

O LEVEL RESULTS is nearing siaaaaaaaa! It's so darn scary to think of it. I just hope I'll score satisfying grades to be able to bring me to either MI or the course that I have been eyeing on since I dunoe when.

Ytd met with boyf,like finally and at first I suspected something but then I manage to snap back to reality and am proud that he's honest. Thanks babyyyyy. I cant wait to get my pay so I can deposit it into my account. Also I cant wait for the date with nas this saturday. woooohooo and to think Ive alr had in mind what to wear on that day. I guess after taking my results I'll still hafta work be it how devastating or happy my grades can be.

Will be working tmr again but I'll be ending off 15-20mins before work ends cos I DIE DIE must watch the LAST episode of the chinese drama@9pm. I cant wait to see what will happen to the bad characters in that story :)

NEARING O LEVEL RESULTS! SCARYYY SIAAAAAAAAAAA>













HELOOOOOO BEAUTIFUL PEEEPOLEEEEE!
I miss blogging! Been very very busy these days that I have no time to entertain myself. My work starts in the morn and sometimes end at night then the next morn will be working again but I'll hafta wake up extra early to prepare my siblings breakfast.

I didnt intend to blog,but then I suddenly felt like blogging cos it has been a few days I havent blog and it feels like weeks alr! The weather now is so coooling,12.30midnight wit heavy downpour and Im wrapped with a blanket. It'll be only perfect if my boyf were to be with me and drink hot chocolate and talk talk or perhaps watch some movie. But I doubt so that'll happen.

Ive got my pay alr and Im elated :) But I think Im overpaid. Some ppl would rather leave as it is,cos they got more $$$$,but that dont work fer me. Will be asking the in charge tmr,and if I deserve it then I''ll take it,who knows it's my luck.

MOM AND DAD WILL BE HOME IN TWO DAYS TIME. OMG,two days time,and I just cant believe it. Supposedly,their flight was supposed to reach Spore at 2am on the 11th. However,it has been changed that they'll reach Spore at 8am.I just cant wait for their arrival and Im so gonna fetch them by hook or by crook.

Nas called just now to inform me about the complete birthday present she has for me. hahahahah. And I was dying to meet her. Will be meeting her tmr after work,fetch her at work and shop shop shop but then I'll spend wisely cos I wanna save $$$$$. I miss boyf and I think it has been a week or so since I last met him. Simply because his working hours and my working hours clash and we cant meet up. I miss boyf really. And I plan on giving him a treat in some restaurant. Havent decided yet ut anw,I hope he doesnt read my blog.

It's 12.37am alr and I should be drooling in bed now cos I need to wake up at 5am tmr. Well,I shall go now nd update soon!







Peopleeeeeee. Today,work was exhausting. And tmr,it is even worse. With 55kids,only 3people handling them aint easy. I have to mark these and that and teach and monitor the kids and etc. What makes it worse,the time is real short,30mins per kid. Unlike at my own centre where I do kumon,it's 45mins per person.

Just now at work,there was this stubborn eurasian kid who refuses to do this and keeps giving up then ended up crying. But anw,tmr is even worse with 55kids to handle. Wahhhhhh. I saw haidah on the way home,she was working at the guardian near by my house. So we talked for like 15-20mins. I really miss her and all my other friends. to top it off,I miss sch the most. O LEVEL results will be out soon before I know it. And I cant wait for my parents arrival back in Spore. PLS PLS PLS ALLAH,SAFE JOURNEY FOR THEM. Since Im having my japan,I cant physically pray fer them but thank God I can still perform the verbal prayers :)

Boyf has been working so hard every single day and I hope he gets sufficient rest. The channel 8 drama at 9pm is really getting onto my nerves,well,it has always been. That explains the GOOD QUALITY of the show. But in the end,confirm happy endings. Well,I believe people follow up the drama cos they await for the happy endings. I'll update soon tmr perhaps. toodless )




I just felt like uploading a picture and I decided to upload the one above. Work today at novena. Went breakfast with nad at Ya Kun Kaya Toast before heading off to work together. Really wanted to send nas to work when she requested,but Ive promised nad I'll be aving breakfast with her. We board 851 to find someone unexpected sitting there,suzannah/nana. Sat with her and chatted until she reached her destination. Reached workplc on time but AGAIN,so much for our punctuality. Nvm.

After work,nad craved for some chicken so we ate at kfc novena square and walked around the mall. Headed off to yishun and I went for my self nurturing development of self learners' class. Walked to the bus interchange and boarded 804,alighted one stop before my stop cos I wanted to walk more and bumped into mira. We talked and hugged each other and I was happy to see her. She just got back from job hunting and congrats to her for geting a job :)

Tmr will be meeting nad before heading work again. I cant wait for the pay! :) And mom smsed me just now about when she'll most probably be home. I MISS THEM AND I NEED THEM PRONTO.

Will update tmr more :) Might be giving boyf a surprise visit at his workplc :)




School starts today for most of the students. Apparently Im not one for the time being. Almost got late for work but I waste my time worrying about being late cos as usual,I arrived punctually. Today working with nad and iylia.

Anw,I'll only be able to post only AN ENTRY PER DAY,cos if I were to post more than one on a same day,only the RECENT post of that particular day will be shown and not the other previous posts on the same day. I'll be doing just that until I get a new nice blogskin almost similarly like the one Im using now.

Ytd night,I went into some poly websites.

SINGAPORE POLY offers Diploma in Applied Drama and Psychology (NEW course)
TEMASEK POLY offers Diploma in Human Resource Management Psycholgy (NEW course)
NGEEANN POLY offers Diploma in Psychology and Community Services (OLD course)

All these poly elevates my interest on entering into poly with that course. Only NGEANN POLY,Diploma in Psychology and Community Services is the course I am MOST interested in and wants it badly. Unfortunately,since it's an OLD COURSE in NGEEANN,there is the CUT-OFF POINT. AND GUESS WAT?! THE CUT-OFF POINT IS 9! Yes u heard me right,9 points. At that point of time I was totally shattered and I said to myself I shall go to Millenia Institute. As for the other poly that offer similar courses as seen above,they have no cut-off points yet cos it's starting only this year. On a lighter note,it is good,but Ive seen the modules for the 3years and i'd rather not pls. IM TOTALLY SHATTERED :(

Work today was average. Do some markings and chit chat with nad and iylia. Got to know iylia better and she's a nice lad. Was supposed to meet up with boyf but I end work late plus boyf's gotta work so some other day this wk. Then together iylia and I walked to the bus stop. Went to the bank at central and there's this middle-aged chinese lady who is unhappy with me. The conversation goes like this:

AUNTY : Excuse me,are you in the queue.

MYSELF : Yes (and she didnt hear me)

So she cut into my queue..

MYSELF : Im in the queue.

AUNTY : I asked u if ure in the queue and u kept quiet.

MYSELF : Hello,I did say Im in the queue.

AUNTY : No,u didnt.

MYSELF : Hello aunt,I did say Im in the line ok. Sorry.

You know,I spoke with some intonation. I was alr like wth in the line. Some people are just so impatient.

Nvm about that,I crave for some ya kun kaya toast now. Hmmm,I shall go have breakfast at ya kun kaya toast tmr. yummmmmy. I cant wait for mom dad's arrival. And I cant wait for payday t oo! Tmr will be working at novena and on friday and saturdays too. My working days at khatib will be on tuesdays and wednesdays. And in my heart I kept laughing to myself seeing kids going to school. Nevertheless,I do miss sch and studying too. I'll update again tmr hopefully! PLS GO BACK TO HIM,FRIEND.




SUCCESS! Completed editing this new blogskin! Well,new year so new blogskin! heh. Sent nas home just now and we were talking about many stuff. I LOVE HER SO MUCH and only God knows. If boyf happen to read this,I hope this blog wont be that difficult for u k,cos I believe the fonts are huge enuf. And imy boyf. I miss my parents too.

Will be going out to the mosque later to check out bro's religious class. Im counting the days my parents will reach home,Insya'allah.

2008

RELATIONSHIP

With boyf since 2006 - 1 year plus going on 2 with boyf going strong and still counting on - by far the LONGEST relationship.


BESTFRIENDS

With nas since 2004. But strongest bond since 2007 - A year and still counting. Altogether 4years ah.


With Fahmy since 2004 - 4years and still counting on.


Thanks nas for the sleepover at my plc,next will be urs k sygggg,hahahah tk tau malu.

I HOPE TO GROW OLD WITH ALL OF THEM INCLUDING MY FAMILY MEMBERS. AMIN :)