So I went out with nas ytd to go to several polys and an ite. Believe me when I say it was horrendous cos it really was. We reached a few minutes late at the administration block of ite simei cos we got lost and still the in-charge said it was close. Then we headed off to tampines interchange but got on the wrong bus. We boarded the bus that head towards I dont know where but it passed by tanah merah mrt station. So we alighted and took the train from there to tampines.

Reached tampines and bumped into my aunt. Then we headed off to tp where my first choice of course awaits. Though I know that this choice doesnt have COP,thus,competition. Talked to the lecturer and she somehow discouraged me saying how slim my chances were in getting into the course I want.

Then headed off to np and the lecturer was more polite but did say to me about the slim chances too. I asked her for suggestions onto what she would do if she was me and she gave her opinion. Right after Nas and I went off to board bus 74 back to dover mrt. We were sad that we din realise that we board the bus at the wrong stop,until I finally realised it after 5mins. We felt really down that we didnt care where it would take us. It was as if we were homeless and futureless. Then we recognised this road where the bus was moving. It was the Lornie Road,hich means there is a straight bus that brings us to yishun. So we did. In the bus we were laughing and making stoopid jokes but deep down we were sad.

Went out with nas in the morn till arnd 4pm and we only drank chinchow,milkshake and some fries and that's it. We were too sad to eat a sumptous meal. Called fahmy to tell about the so-called interviews and I suddenly burst into tears. In our 5years of friendship,that is the first time he heard me cry. But then the crying didnt last. I manage to get a hold of myself. Then had an almost one hour discussion with mom and dad about the path I should take. Now Im no longer lost and scared cos I noe what to do alr. I really hope nas will stay strong,alright babyyyy :)

Remember about my previous entry I said about my last resort is to go back school,well Ive decided not to,the last resort has changed :) I believe whatever I get is because God wants me to have it cos he knows what's best for me. ANd if let's say I dont get any course Ive applied,simply because God wants me to try again,and who knows I'll do better,Insya'allah.