i finally knew how to type my posts in paragraphs. hahahah. good,then my sis wont hafta make noise at me saying abt my bad paragraphing and etc. ytd slept late at arnd 2am talking to bf on the fone. before heading off to slp called hana to say im off to bed.

ytd heroes was awesome and im so gonna keep track of the show. i hope i'll be able to watch it when im not in spore. might be going SG either today or tmr. dad's gonna hafta confirm with me pronto cos if today's not the SG day i'll be meeting bf.

a burden off my shoulder already - done with o levels. however,what i worry is the outcome of it. plus, i miss the atmosphere of sch teachers and friends. and i even miss doing maths. thank god i still hve my maths tuition. people whom i told that i still have tuition, go like ,"crazzzzyyy ah! what for?" hahahhah. learning never stops. nas will be starting werk this wednesday and i'll be starting only nx mth. thanks god there's a mosque nearby my werkplc so i'll be able to perform prayers there and not worry abt missing my prayers. furthermore,mom and dad trust me that i'll pray no matter where i am and therefore i shall not violate their trusts :)

often times i feel like putting a stop to SOMETHING which i really cant say here. i am grateful that my life is perfect. i have awesome parents. great siblings and friends. there is only just one thing,just one thing that i wish to end it. but i cant end it cos i dun want that party to get hurt. i'd rather im the one who's hurt than letting others hurt. sometimes i pray to Him asking Him to end it. END IT. but it has been so long already. if i wanted to end it,i should have ended it long time ago and not now. cos there's just too much commitment and sacrifices already done. but i dun have the heart to do so. i dun have the heart to see the other party suffer. and this is the one thing that makes me create more sins.

i've been listening to those nasyid songs for weeks already and it somehow knock a sense into me that we humans are not gonna live forever. one day everyone will die bringing only their deeds with them. some humans fail to see this as they are too caught up with the wonders of the world where actually one day everything will come to an end. like what my religious teacher said, humans say they wanna go to heaven. but what they say never go a long with their actions. as saying is easy but performing it is hard. they only say that they want to go to heaven but they dont abide by the Islamic rules. been sometime i try hard to abide by the rules. i make sure when im out having fun i wont ferget to find a mosque to pray. that i respect my parents. but like what i say there is just one thing that stops me from being a good muslimah.

anw,i wont stop asking from Him to end it.